Bucket List

So I've started making my own bucket list. I intend to finish it and make it look pretty then print it out and mark things off. So far I have 50 things. Here they are:

1.       See a hot air balloon festival and go up in one

2.       Go to wallmart

3.       Learn sign language

4.       Invent a lullaby

5.       Have a massive library with a sliding ladder

6.       Experience zero-gravity

7.       See the Northern Lights

8.       See stonehenge

9.       Travel through Venice on a gondola

10.   Learn sword fighting

11.   Learn how to shoot with lots of different guns

12.   Read every book written by Sherrilyn Kenyon

13.   Make a list of 100 books I want to read and read them all

14.   Collect my favourite books from my childhood

15. Buy every book on my book wishlist

16.   Meet Misha Collins

17.   Meet Matt Bomer

18.   Meet Jenson Ackles

19.   Join the Mile-High Club

20.   Pass on a family heirloom to your child. (We don't have any so I'd have to start my own tradition).

21.   Write a letter to each of your children telling them what you want them to know about your life and the lessons you've learned

22.   Have my own home with a fireplace

23.   Have a four poster bed

24.   Get a book published

25.   See someone reading my book

26.   Donate blood

27.   Own a small bookstore with comfy cushions to sit on.

28.   Write a novel in a month through NaNoWriMo

29.   Try Beignets at Cafe Du Monde

30.   Quit a job I hate

31.   Attend a Murder Mystery Dinner

32.   Have a whirlwind romance in a foreign country

33.   Meet Sherrilyn Kenyon

34.   Go Zorbing in New Zealand.

35.   Starburst

36.   Plant a tree

37.   Ride in a black 1967 Chevy Impala

38.   Watch all 8 Hp’s in a row without stopping

39.   Have a zen garden

40.   Go to a comedy festival in Montreal

41.   Visit Vancouver

42.   Tick everything of my ‘naughty list’

43.   Ride a mechanical bull

44.   Visit all the Disneyland/world’s : Orlando, Paris, Hong Kong, Japan, California, 

45.   Make a candle and keep it burning for someone I love

46.   Knit a quilt

47.   Develop my own herb garden and keep it alive!!!

48.   Take a roadtrip with friends

49.   Snuggle up in the arms of the man I love and watch fireworks

50.   Make a list of 100 things that make me happy and decorate it

If wishes were like flowers I'd like....

- Flowers. Noone's ever given me flowers before.
-Guys to be able to tell what your hints mean.
-People to be more thoughtful with their gift giving, not just relying on something predictable like alcohol as a gift, especially when the receiver barely drinks. For my 18th i got heaps of alcohol. I drank NONE of it, shows how much you know me people :/

-A claddagh ring for my birthday. I used to have one but my sis dropped my tv on it and smooshed it. I'd really love another one so that i could show the world in a teeny tiny way that my heart belongs to another. Plus the whole thing is a sign of friendship, love and loyalty and that seems like such a beautiful thing to me.
- To rediscover lost abilities. Namely baking, but also pool and drawing.
-My sis to have her baby, she's now 5 days overdue and i'm tired of waiting for the news that she's gone into labour!
-Starburst. This might only make sense to a few of my followers but it bothers me greatly that I have yet to achieve this. it seems that those who can don't appreciate or desire it nearly as much as those who cant, it seems to be one of those 'weak know the true value of strength' things (yeah i watched the captain america trailer earlier :P )

Can't touch this

Sometimes a girl just has to rant, so bare with me. I've recently been embroiled in a fight between myself and my boyfriends's mates. A heated debate turned into them attacking me and my friends who weren't even involved ending with me in tears and my bf deciding to not talk to his friends. Unfortunately his assholes of friends have decided that I am the enemy that must be eliminated and are consistently driving a wedge. His mate threatened me, demanded my bf 'sort out his bitch of a gf' and blamed me for absolutely everything, claiming that my guy is a bad friend and stating that 'he hopes he gets shot' when he gets deployed.

I feel like I've ruined a friendship, and am hurting my guy, despite the fact that I was the one attacked and not the attacker. I'm miserable over the situation and feel like a terrible person. Frankly I'm sick of them ganging up on me. So I've decided my attitude needs to change. I don't need them to like me as long as my bf still loves me. I didn't do anything wrong so I don't need to feel guilty. And ya know what, fuck them! Threatening my relationship, my friends, saying that you'll sic a warrant officer on me...makes you a fuckwit. Calling me names like fat slut, vile bitch, and stating that he can 'go and find a REAL woman once he's done' with me makes you a horrible person and a nasty bastard. And I'm not going to let you hurt me anymore. I'm not afraid, you CANT hurt me, and you CANT hurt my relationship unless i let you. And i fucking wont.