Out with the old and in with the new....
So This will be my final post for NaBloWriMo. Yay! I have successfully blogged everyday ^_^ admittedly most were crappy filler blogs because i actually am not that interesting and really have nothing to talk about, but still, go me!! So this is me, over and out.
NaNoWriMo starts tomorrow! Eeek! I'm feeling very unprepared, my idea was thought of months ago and hasn't been considered since, i haven't written anything in over a month and frankly I think i might be over my head. But regardless I'm going to do it. Even if it's crap, which it probably will be, I will have that winner badge! I will!!! So since I'm gunna be focusing most of my energy on winning Nano and not failing my exams I won't be blogging much. Though I will blog at least once a week so check back :D
Case you didn't notice the pumpkin for NaBlo has officailly been replaced with the sticker for Nano. My background on my laptop has changed to this and I'm officially 'prepared' :P
Show me the books he loves and I shall know the man far better than through mortal friends. ~ Dawn Adams ~
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Things I love about Christmas
Wrapping paper. So i'm a child at heart, I love wrapping things, unwrapping things, picking which wrapping paper to use....there are so many different types!
Christmas parties. Christmas gives us a reason to have more gatherings, and who doesn't love hanging out with friends?!
Giving presents that people love. When you give someone something that makes their face light up with joy, and you can see that they love it...awesome feeling.
Christmas decorations. Whilst admittedly the shops bring them out waaaay too early i cant help but love all the tinsel and baubles, all the pretty lights. And at home when people go into the effort to cover their homes in lights and have Santa's on their lawns. Amazing :D
Christmas trees. With piles of presents underneath, and little lights wrapped around. With branches laden with baubles and tinsel, little chocolates hanging underneath. A childish pleasure but one that should never be underestimated.
Christmas parties. Christmas gives us a reason to have more gatherings, and who doesn't love hanging out with friends?!
Giving presents that people love. When you give someone something that makes their face light up with joy, and you can see that they love it...awesome feeling.
Christmas decorations. Whilst admittedly the shops bring them out waaaay too early i cant help but love all the tinsel and baubles, all the pretty lights. And at home when people go into the effort to cover their homes in lights and have Santa's on their lawns. Amazing :D
Christmas trees. With piles of presents underneath, and little lights wrapped around. With branches laden with baubles and tinsel, little chocolates hanging underneath. A childish pleasure but one that should never be underestimated.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Things I hate about Christmas
Christmas carols= annoying jingles that get STUCK in you're head for days at a time
Present Shopping. Buying books for other people...i hate it. i know what I like but what about what they like? Then there's the awful question of what if they don't like the authors I adore? For example I love sherrilyn Kenyon's series, so I recommended them to friends but then I get concerned, it confuses me when people don't love the authors the same way I do. I mean I get that people have different opinions but it sucks when people don't love things the way i do, stupid differing opinons :(
And if you don't buy them books what do you get them? It's so hard to be personal/thoughtful/a totally awesome present giver when you are expected to give heaps of people presents. What if you don't know them well enough? And how much should you spend on a casual friend/bestfriend/ family member? What if you have no money. Then there's the horrible what if they spend more than me and i look like a cheapskate? Or what they spend so much less than you did and you feel underappreciated. I know it's about the thought not the cost in theory, but in reality if there's a drastic difference in price between presents it hurts a bit. Stupid I know but true nonetheless.
Family issues. Once my parents divorced Christmas began to suck. My mum and sister would fight all the time. My dad made it clear he didn't care if he saw us on Christmas or not. My Dad and my Mum couldn't talk to each other in order to decide what my sister and i would do. It all sucked, leaving me feel strained and battered, and a tad neglected.
Christmas Cards. People never send them anymore. Why not?! I love getting cards in the post and I send heaps but get 2 at the most :( Send more cards peoples!
Christmas In Australia. It's just not right. Too hot. Too many flys. Not enough snow and roaring fires like it's supposed to be, or used to be in England
Christmas isn't that far away guys, better get thinking about pressie shopping!!!
Present Shopping. Buying books for other people...i hate it. i know what I like but what about what they like? Then there's the awful question of what if they don't like the authors I adore? For example I love sherrilyn Kenyon's series, so I recommended them to friends but then I get concerned, it confuses me when people don't love the authors the same way I do. I mean I get that people have different opinions but it sucks when people don't love things the way i do, stupid differing opinons :(
And if you don't buy them books what do you get them? It's so hard to be personal/thoughtful/a totally awesome present giver when you are expected to give heaps of people presents. What if you don't know them well enough? And how much should you spend on a casual friend/bestfriend/ family member? What if you have no money. Then there's the horrible what if they spend more than me and i look like a cheapskate? Or what they spend so much less than you did and you feel underappreciated. I know it's about the thought not the cost in theory, but in reality if there's a drastic difference in price between presents it hurts a bit. Stupid I know but true nonetheless.
Family issues. Once my parents divorced Christmas began to suck. My mum and sister would fight all the time. My dad made it clear he didn't care if he saw us on Christmas or not. My Dad and my Mum couldn't talk to each other in order to decide what my sister and i would do. It all sucked, leaving me feel strained and battered, and a tad neglected.
Christmas Cards. People never send them anymore. Why not?! I love getting cards in the post and I send heaps but get 2 at the most :( Send more cards peoples!
Christmas In Australia. It's just not right. Too hot. Too many flys. Not enough snow and roaring fires like it's supposed to be, or used to be in England
Christmas isn't that far away guys, better get thinking about pressie shopping!!!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Life lessons
If you take one thing from today it should be this... BACK UP. I mean it. All your photos, music, writing, uni work. All of it. Back it up peoples! Because if you, for example drop your laptop, you will lose it all. And a lot of it you can never get back! So back it up, please!
When you lose something you've worked really hard on it can be devastating. So back up frequently to ensure ALL you're work is saved.
This is all.
When you lose something you've worked really hard on it can be devastating. So back up frequently to ensure ALL you're work is saved.
This is all.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Things I hate that you probably like...
So I keep seeing this list around so I figured I'd give it a shot.
* Secret Millionaire - I hate it, but my mum loves it, call me a cynic but I hate all reality tv shows: Biggest Loser, American Idol, X factor, Survivor, Wife swap. Hate em all.
* Medical Dramas - aside from Hawthorne, shows like Grey's anatomy and private practice. Hate them!
*Robert Pattinson/Kristen Stewart. I hate you both. Kristen you are quite possibly the dullest trailer trash wannabe ever. And Rob, get a life and go shower. Also I DONT care if you're dating! Twilight related crap. Stephanie Meyer had a good plot, yes, but she is a shit writer. All this 'melodrama' over something so full of shit is ridiculous. Get over it tweenies.
* Twitter. It confuses me. And why is the NEWS on TWITTER?! seriously, is it necessary?
* E-books. You've seen my rant so i wont elaborate.
* Lady Gaga, Beyonce, Black Eyed Peas.
* Leggings as pants. Floral designs on clothes. Tshirts worn as dresses. People wearing heels to the shops or uni.
* South Park. Whiny voices, stupid plots. I'd rather have the worlds worst hangover than watch that.
* Random hookups at parties/excessive drinking. makes you look trashy. Plus you throw up everywhere. Get some class ppl, you CAN have fun without being so smashed that you can't walk straight.
Agree or disagree with my list? Anything you want to add?
* Secret Millionaire - I hate it, but my mum loves it, call me a cynic but I hate all reality tv shows: Biggest Loser, American Idol, X factor, Survivor, Wife swap. Hate em all.
* Medical Dramas - aside from Hawthorne, shows like Grey's anatomy and private practice. Hate them!
*Robert Pattinson/Kristen Stewart. I hate you both. Kristen you are quite possibly the dullest trailer trash wannabe ever. And Rob, get a life and go shower. Also I DONT care if you're dating! Twilight related crap. Stephanie Meyer had a good plot, yes, but she is a shit writer. All this 'melodrama' over something so full of shit is ridiculous. Get over it tweenies.
* Twitter. It confuses me. And why is the NEWS on TWITTER?! seriously, is it necessary?
* E-books. You've seen my rant so i wont elaborate.
* Lady Gaga, Beyonce, Black Eyed Peas.
* Leggings as pants. Floral designs on clothes. Tshirts worn as dresses. People wearing heels to the shops or uni.
* South Park. Whiny voices, stupid plots. I'd rather have the worlds worst hangover than watch that.
* Random hookups at parties/excessive drinking. makes you look trashy. Plus you throw up everywhere. Get some class ppl, you CAN have fun without being so smashed that you can't walk straight.
Agree or disagree with my list? Anything you want to add?
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
NaBloWriMo
Is almost over! Bout 5 days left, and I will have successfully blogged everyday for an entire month! GO me! Just want you guys, my 'loyal' followers who totally haven't been commenting on my posts anything :P to know that come November i won't be posting as much, though teaser tuesday will be reinstated. :D
As for nanowrimo, I'm quite excited though I have no idea what I'll be writing about which terrifies me. I really want to win this, to prove that I can write, and maybe oneday get my work published.
So tell me guys, any of you doing NaNo this year? Whatcha writing about?
As for nanowrimo, I'm quite excited though I have no idea what I'll be writing about which terrifies me. I really want to win this, to prove that I can write, and maybe oneday get my work published.
So tell me guys, any of you doing NaNo this year? Whatcha writing about?
Monday, October 25, 2010
Pointless insights
So i've been staring at a blank screen trying to think of something for todays post. But honestly I have no idea. So instead of a boring post I think I'll just post a few pictures with ideas that mean something to me
I wish someone would say something like this to me. To accept me for who I am, crazy violence and all.
Letters are underrated nowadays. All the focus on getting a letter, checking the post each day and taking the time to consider what to write is forgotten now. An email? It's boring and regular. I just like getting a letter in the post, I'll keep it for far longer than any email. So write me a letter peoples!
This was a quiz result i found whilst looking for supernatural pics. I couldn't find the quiz but thought the picture sums me up quite nicely. Admittedly I'd rather do Cas than be him. :P
Sunday, October 24, 2010
I hate you but I like your friend...
In some things...books, movies etc. I simply cannot stand the main character, but the minor characters? My Fav's. I thought I'd share a few with you
Lord Of The Rings. Hate Frodo, love Eomer.
Glee. Hate Rachel, love Brittany and Santana
Lie to me. Prefer Loker to Lightman.
And so on. Why is it these main ones suck so bad? They're either whiny, annoying or simply dicks. And in Rachel's case all three. You just want to punch them or take them down a notch. And the minor characters, whilst smaller parts, are just hilarious, sexy, or have the best parts in the book/movie.
Just me? Or do you prefer characters which, whilst given less screentime, are still way better than the main character?
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Fashionably late..
Fashionably late: "Depending on the type/style of the event fashionably late can also range from 5 minutes (to a dinner date or a small gathering) to 45 minutes-1 hour (21st parties ) This time frame, or 'cushion', allows enough other people to have already arrived so that it is not only the birthday person and their parents in attendance and also conveys the possibility that you have come from a previous engagement" - Urban Dictionary
The whole idea of fashionably late bothers me. As someone who likes to be on time I hate it when other people aren't. 5-10 mins is okay but any longer and i'll start getting cranky. Whether its just for meeting up to go to the movies or going to a party being late bothers me. It's so annoying, the concept of fashionably late, because whoever is organising the party still has to be ready for whatever time they said the party starts even though most people wont turn up for ages. And those people who do get there ontime end up feeling like total losers because noone else is there. And those who organised the party? Still have that residual fear that no one is coming. Or that the party will suck for ages.
So i don't know why I thought of this today. Or why it even ended up as a rant in todays post. but what i do know is that ranting just makes me more annoyed instead of being the cathartic release of pent up aggression :/
The whole idea of fashionably late bothers me. As someone who likes to be on time I hate it when other people aren't. 5-10 mins is okay but any longer and i'll start getting cranky. Whether its just for meeting up to go to the movies or going to a party being late bothers me. It's so annoying, the concept of fashionably late, because whoever is organising the party still has to be ready for whatever time they said the party starts even though most people wont turn up for ages. And those people who do get there ontime end up feeling like total losers because noone else is there. And those who organised the party? Still have that residual fear that no one is coming. Or that the party will suck for ages.
So i don't know why I thought of this today. Or why it even ended up as a rant in todays post. but what i do know is that ranting just makes me more annoyed instead of being the cathartic release of pent up aggression :/
Friday, October 22, 2010
My Bad
You may have noticed the quality of my blog posts getting progressivly worse recently? Well I certainly have.. So I just wanted to take this opportunity to apologize for how crap they are getting. I guess I've been getting bored, I'm blogging everyday so i've kind of been running out of stuff to talk about. Not only am I running out of stuff to talk about but I seem to be running out of time and energy. So my blog has suffered. My bad.
To make up for it I made cookies :D And a fruit crumble. But I ate them :/ Well not all of it :P but still who wants a cookie? :D
Also im having an xmen marathon ^^
To make up for it I made cookies :D And a fruit crumble. But I ate them :/ Well not all of it :P but still who wants a cookie? :D
Also im having an xmen marathon ^^
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Pet Peeves
Some things that annoy the crap out of me. Love to know which ones you agree with me on...
1. People who don't indicate if they're turning at roundabouts
2. Shops that don't advertise if they have an eftpos limit
3. Mosquito bites
4. Flat soft drinks when you get postmix in restaurants
5. People who use my name when ordering at KFC. It's creepy and makes me wonder if I know you. It can also verge on rude or disrespectful depending on the tone. Same goes for people whistling or yelling to get attention when I'm serving. I am not a fucking dog so will not serve you if you whistle at me!
6. Randoms who sit directly in front of, or beside, in an empty movie theater. Keep your distance unless it's packed, please!
7. Slutty/trashy preteens. Seriously. There's no need to dress like a streetwalker at 13! Put some clothes on and get some fucking class.
8. Journals that sound really helpful to an assignment but don't have fulltext online
9. People who overshare their lovelives via their facebook statuses. If they're in the other room go tell them you love them and their 'skills' rather than posting it via fb! Some things shouldn't be quite so detailed where unwitting friends can read it.
10. Flies. Ants. Basically any kind of bug. I hate them. They're noisy and randomly touch you in the night making your skin crawl and just generally disturb me.
1. People who don't indicate if they're turning at roundabouts
2. Shops that don't advertise if they have an eftpos limit
3. Mosquito bites
4. Flat soft drinks when you get postmix in restaurants
5. People who use my name when ordering at KFC. It's creepy and makes me wonder if I know you. It can also verge on rude or disrespectful depending on the tone. Same goes for people whistling or yelling to get attention when I'm serving. I am not a fucking dog so will not serve you if you whistle at me!
6. Randoms who sit directly in front of, or beside, in an empty movie theater. Keep your distance unless it's packed, please!
7. Slutty/trashy preteens. Seriously. There's no need to dress like a streetwalker at 13! Put some clothes on and get some fucking class.
8. Journals that sound really helpful to an assignment but don't have fulltext online
9. People who overshare their lovelives via their facebook statuses. If they're in the other room go tell them you love them and their 'skills' rather than posting it via fb! Some things shouldn't be quite so detailed where unwitting friends can read it.
10. Flies. Ants. Basically any kind of bug. I hate them. They're noisy and randomly touch you in the night making your skin crawl and just generally disturb me.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
NaNoWriMo Calenders
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Love on my mind but not in my heart
"You know, it's weird how you still love the person, you just stop needing them the way you used to" - Dawson's Creek
There's so much difference between loving someone and being in love with someone. I love my friends, they're are great people who always know how to make everything okay or deal with my bitter bitchiness. I tell them I love them all the time because people need to hear that they are valued and cared about...
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...But being in love? A completely foreign experience to me. The idea of letting someone into my heart, loving completely and trusting someone with my heart? Scary as hell. What's scarier though is the idea that I might never be in love. I think the idea of being 'in love' is tossed around far too much these days, said far too easily and lacks meaning. Being 'in love' means far more to me than it appears, its too meaningless now. :(
" I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or brother, or confidante, but never quite somebody's everything." - This I feel sums me up quite well.
So to all my friends out there, I love you guys. And to any guy whom I might give my heart to, be patient, I will only say i'm in love if I'm certain I am.
There's so much difference between loving someone and being in love with someone. I love my friends, they're are great people who always know how to make everything okay or deal with my bitter bitchiness. I tell them I love them all the time because people need to hear that they are valued and cared about...
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Falling in love. Sharing your life with someone. Giving your heart to another person to the extent that losing them could potentially destroy you. It's such a crazy thing to do"
...But being in love? A completely foreign experience to me. The idea of letting someone into my heart, loving completely and trusting someone with my heart? Scary as hell. What's scarier though is the idea that I might never be in love. I think the idea of being 'in love' is tossed around far too much these days, said far too easily and lacks meaning. Being 'in love' means far more to me than it appears, its too meaningless now. :(
" I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or brother, or confidante, but never quite somebody's everything." - This I feel sums me up quite well.
So to all my friends out there, I love you guys. And to any guy whom I might give my heart to, be patient, I will only say i'm in love if I'm certain I am.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Mozzie Bites..
1.Bloody itch!!!
2. Always seem to come in groups. They cluster like they feel the need to feed next to each other...kinda like girls going to the bathroom together
3. Always look so ugly, Giant raised redness or weird scabby lumps if you scratch too hard
4. Itch constantly!
5. Always seem to be in awkward places...ankles, waistband region, upper thigh...
6. Annoy the hell out of me.
7. No, seriously, I wish I could exterminate the lot
8. Although that would probably be bad for the ecosystem...
9. But theyre just so itchy that I cant stand them.
10. The worst kind of bites. ;)
2. Always seem to come in groups. They cluster like they feel the need to feed next to each other...kinda like girls going to the bathroom together
3. Always look so ugly, Giant raised redness or weird scabby lumps if you scratch too hard
4. Itch constantly!
5. Always seem to be in awkward places...ankles, waistband region, upper thigh...
6. Annoy the hell out of me.
7. No, seriously, I wish I could exterminate the lot
8. Although that would probably be bad for the ecosystem...
9. But theyre just so itchy that I cant stand them.
10. The worst kind of bites. ;)
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Inspiration
Some people inspire me more than others.
1. My friends...this is a given, but my friends give me the confidence to write, provoke new thoughts and ideas and encourage me to be myself. This comes through in my writing
2. Authors like Sherrilyn Kenyon and Larissa Ione, they inspire me to try to improve my writing. To be more like them but in my own way...
3. Supernatural. Shows like this inspire branching fan fics. Besides who doesnt love Dean and Cas?
4. My dreams. Weird i know, but my dreams are so random and vivid and i'd like to incorporate them more into my work. A small aspect of cabin fever came from a dream...
5. Weirdly enough, not my family. In fact they tend to unwittingly crush any inspired thoughts, they dont care about my writing, and i could never show it them because of what i write.
so who inspires you?
1. My friends...this is a given, but my friends give me the confidence to write, provoke new thoughts and ideas and encourage me to be myself. This comes through in my writing
2. Authors like Sherrilyn Kenyon and Larissa Ione, they inspire me to try to improve my writing. To be more like them but in my own way...
3. Supernatural. Shows like this inspire branching fan fics. Besides who doesnt love Dean and Cas?
4. My dreams. Weird i know, but my dreams are so random and vivid and i'd like to incorporate them more into my work. A small aspect of cabin fever came from a dream...
5. Weirdly enough, not my family. In fact they tend to unwittingly crush any inspired thoughts, they dont care about my writing, and i could never show it them because of what i write.
so who inspires you?
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Reclaiming my space.
Now I have a pretty small, rather weirdly shaped office. Having got my laptop I rarely use it anymore though. I am thinking that when i get back from my trip and have built my savings back up I might redo it. So this blog is basically me detailing my ideal space as a follow on from my previous post.
Chuck my current desk and buy a nice heavy desk. Im thinking this one from ikea which would give me space for my computer, hide all the cables, and give me storage space. if i put boxes in the squares then i can hide/store stuff.
Chuck my current desk and buy a nice heavy desk. Im thinking this one from ikea which would give me space for my computer, hide all the cables, and give me storage space. if i put boxes in the squares then i can hide/store stuff.
THat would be pressed up against the wall with the window. lining the other walls would be my bookcases. I wouldnt need space for cupboards due to the storage space in the desk so in the free space I could either get a squishy chair/beanbag/ pile of cushions. Or i could just keep the space free.
I would also get a new chair suitable for writing for long periods and comfy enough for watching tv in. Im thinking something like these...
But chairs are really something u gotta sit in to test out. I'd also want some new lamps, maybe new curtainy things, lights above my bookcases and just generally soften the room up.
So whatcha think?
Friday, October 15, 2010
Writing Needs
NaBloWriMo Writing prompt:
Describe your ideal writing setting. Now--tell us if that's where you do your writing. In other words, does your current office/nook/den/whathaveyou meet the needs you have as a writer?
Ideal Setting: My ideal setting is hard i guess as I haven't really explored writing in other places. I think i would like a decent solid desk low enough to rest my wrists on but high enough to fit my legs under. A big squishy chair with arm rests and a supportive backrest. A space with enough light to see the keys but not too much to make the screen reflect. I would love a dark, comfortable office where I'm surrounded by books I love and can sit either comfortably in the chair or maybe, for when I'm feeling like a break, on a small sofa or pile of cushions.
What I have: I tend to write on my laptop in my bedroom. Lying flat across my bed or with the lappy on my lap. Both these positions suck, in the former my wrists and back/shoulders ache after a while. In the latter my lappy gets hot, or my arms are too close to my body to type easily. Even now i'm typing this sprawled across my bed despite the fact I have an office. I rarely use it though because my desk is crappy and my chair, whilst great for watching tv, is simply too squishy and big to comfortably type. I'm intending sometime next year after my trip away to start saving up for a new desk and chair so I can redo my office into a haven.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Procrastination.
Now first of all let me just celebrate getting 15 followers, this may not be much to anyone else but it's pretty great to me. So thanks guys.
So there are various methods I like to use when I have an assignment looming or a task that specifically requires my attention that i really dont want to do. Here's a few of them...
1. Well to be honest this would be one of them. I'm really meant to have start work on my journal for human rights tonight but i'm procrastinating by blogging about procrastination.
2. Procrastibake. If I'm home alone procrastibaking is most often the thing ill turn too. Cookies, crumbles and those rice crispy things are my most popular choices.
3. Procrastibate. This is fairly self explanatory... Stress tends to arouse all aspects of my mind :P
4. Procrastiwatch. Basically i just watch tv. Reruns, entire seasons, its all fair game when theres something i have to do.
5. Facebooking. This is a classic unfortunatly. Though not much of a successful timewaster.
6. Reading
7. looking up pictures on sites like xanga for use as display pictures or backgrounds.
I dont tend to write as a form of procrastination. It almost seems disrespectful.
So do you guys have another methods of procrastination? Think I'm weird? Sound off in the comments :D
So there are various methods I like to use when I have an assignment looming or a task that specifically requires my attention that i really dont want to do. Here's a few of them...
1. Well to be honest this would be one of them. I'm really meant to have start work on my journal for human rights tonight but i'm procrastinating by blogging about procrastination.
2. Procrastibake. If I'm home alone procrastibaking is most often the thing ill turn too. Cookies, crumbles and those rice crispy things are my most popular choices.
3. Procrastibate. This is fairly self explanatory... Stress tends to arouse all aspects of my mind :P
4. Procrastiwatch. Basically i just watch tv. Reruns, entire seasons, its all fair game when theres something i have to do.
5. Facebooking. This is a classic unfortunatly. Though not much of a successful timewaster.
6. Reading
7. looking up pictures on sites like xanga for use as display pictures or backgrounds.
I dont tend to write as a form of procrastination. It almost seems disrespectful.
So do you guys have another methods of procrastination? Think I'm weird? Sound off in the comments :D
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Bored.
So I've been feeling a little high strung lately, excessively emotional which is unusual for me, I'm usually kinda of emotionless. I'm not 100% certain whats wrong, i usually operate better under stress than normal situations, but I think there might be too much stress right now. trying to keep all these secrets and help everyone out and do my assignments and live my life. And it all just keeps crashing down on me.
I think i've figured out why its all affecting me so much. I'm bored. All the time. I'm so sick of being alone and so bored of just doing the same things day after day. i miss excitement, and fun. There's just something so wrong with feeling alone. I'm used to being alone and normally it doesn't affect me, i rarely feel lonely. it's just there are times when everything is too much and all you want to do is crawl into someones arms, have them wipe away your tears and tell you that everything will be okay because you have them. But alas, it's times like these when it really hits you just how alone you are. There is noone to hold you. Noone to brush the tears off your cheeks. No one who can drive over to your house to tell you everythings okay even though its 2am. You are alone. And it sucks.
But my point is its the boredom that gives me the time to think about these things. Simply too much is going on in my head because there is too much time where i'm just thinking. Maybe I need to get out more...
I think i've figured out why its all affecting me so much. I'm bored. All the time. I'm so sick of being alone and so bored of just doing the same things day after day. i miss excitement, and fun. There's just something so wrong with feeling alone. I'm used to being alone and normally it doesn't affect me, i rarely feel lonely. it's just there are times when everything is too much and all you want to do is crawl into someones arms, have them wipe away your tears and tell you that everything will be okay because you have them. But alas, it's times like these when it really hits you just how alone you are. There is noone to hold you. Noone to brush the tears off your cheeks. No one who can drive over to your house to tell you everythings okay even though its 2am. You are alone. And it sucks.
But my point is its the boredom that gives me the time to think about these things. Simply too much is going on in my head because there is too much time where i'm just thinking. Maybe I need to get out more...
Monday, October 11, 2010
And they all lived happily ever after...
So today I finished my 'emergency' book. Its basically a book i always keep in the car for the times that i ditch uni and go hang out somewhere and read. It was yet another harlequin one, my emergency is always a harlequin one, dunno why. But anyway I finally managed to finish it. And once again it kinda made me angry. here's why:
1) The ending was too easy. After all the build up and the dramatic 'do they love each other'-ness, all the 'can they deal with their issues to fall for each other' tension. Then it just ended so fast with him deciding that revenge wasnt important anymore and her deciding that she loved him more than her career or her dad. and suddenly badabing badaboom they were deciding to get married and have babies. completely disregarding the fact he didnt want kids or anything. Romance endings are just TOO easy.
2) Too fast. Once again the story spanned about 2 weeks. In two weeks they met, they fought, they fell madly in lust, they had sex and decided they loved each other and wanted a future together. In real life relationships that are this intense this fast are doomed to die. And seriously what self-respecting girl wants to marry a guy you've only known 2 weeks?!
3) Blaze harlequins are the only ones I like. Simply because without the sex the rest are just lame.
Now don't get me wrong I love romance stories, but sometimes I think they portray something that simply diesn't exist. makes a girl feel that if she isn't caught up in a whirlwind romance with a proposal after 2 weeks then the relationship isnt going anywhere. The plots are too typical with no real twists. You know exactly how it will end after 2 pages, its sad and predictable. Predictable =boring
1) The ending was too easy. After all the build up and the dramatic 'do they love each other'-ness, all the 'can they deal with their issues to fall for each other' tension. Then it just ended so fast with him deciding that revenge wasnt important anymore and her deciding that she loved him more than her career or her dad. and suddenly badabing badaboom they were deciding to get married and have babies. completely disregarding the fact he didnt want kids or anything. Romance endings are just TOO easy.
2) Too fast. Once again the story spanned about 2 weeks. In two weeks they met, they fought, they fell madly in lust, they had sex and decided they loved each other and wanted a future together. In real life relationships that are this intense this fast are doomed to die. And seriously what self-respecting girl wants to marry a guy you've only known 2 weeks?!
3) Blaze harlequins are the only ones I like. Simply because without the sex the rest are just lame.
Now don't get me wrong I love romance stories, but sometimes I think they portray something that simply diesn't exist. makes a girl feel that if she isn't caught up in a whirlwind romance with a proposal after 2 weeks then the relationship isnt going anywhere. The plots are too typical with no real twists. You know exactly how it will end after 2 pages, its sad and predictable. Predictable =boring
Sunday, October 10, 2010
10 days in and i'm on a roll...
So it's ten days into NaBloWriMo and I've blogged everyday :D Yay. Kinda not feeling like posting anything meaningful right now so I may or may not come back later. Either way this totally counts towards todays blog.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
New shows I'm Loving Right Now
So I honestly have no idea what i'm going to blog about today. So i might just mention a few of my new favourite shows
1. Hawaii Five-O.
1. Hawaii Five-O.
Now with the seriously sexy Alex O' Loughlin as a main character i know i was going to love this remake of the classic Tv show. But its actually really good. Fast action with deep emotional connections and one helluva cast this skyrocketed up my top fav TV show list after the FIRST episode. That should demonstrate exactly how great this show is.
2. Nikita.
An ex-assassin trying to take down the rogue government agency that trained her, Nikita is a fierce fighter and has a rather interesting chemistry with Michael played by Shane West (from A Walk to Remember). Now this is another remake but i think of movie, not sure but who cares? With the help of a pretty girl with a troubled past Nikita attempts to undermine Division at any cost. I like it. :)
3.No ordinary Family
A family who after a plane crash on a family trip develop superpowers and try to cope with old family issues and new ability issues. Each person in the family has their own problems to deal with, Dad think he isn't needed, Mum has too little time to be a part of family life, the kid with a learning disorder thinks he's stupid, and the girl just wants to fit in. All off this is brought sharply into focus with the inclusion of new abilities and crime solving. Its a sweet look into a family dynamic and I think it's only going to get better.
4. Hellcats
Directed by Tom Welling, this look into a law student who tries to stay in school by getting a cheer leading scholarship. It's funny and fresh with some really school moves and basically follows the cheerleaders as they try to maintain their funding + keep their scholarships by placing at some competition, whilst also struggling with infighting, family dysfunction, hectic schedules and love life drama. I really like it because its how the new girl joins the team and struggles to be accepted whilst remaining who she is and the pitfalls and rises that come with it.
5. Undercovers
Now I've only seen one ep of this, but I liked it and will be watching more. From what i gather two ex spies married and left the biz, instead opening a catering place. When an old mutual friend goes missing they're both called back to 'serve their country' (ugh how american) They have to deal with their past coming back to bite them as well as maintaining their marriage and completing missions. There also seems to be some kind of conspiracy.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Wild child
"Every girl goes through a wild child phase, good girls are the worst" - Beckett (Castle)
This random quote from Kate Beckett on Castle prompted me thinking and thus todays post.
Now i would class myself as a good girl. I rarely drink, I'm not promiscuous, I'm generally well behaved. Okay so sometimes i can be a bitch but anyways the point is I would class myself as a good girl. i've been trying to think back and i don't think i've ever had a wildchild phase. I think i'm too self conscious to fully let go and go wild and that bothers me. I kinda wish I'd had a wildchild phase so i could've experience life more fully but alas, I didn't.
Is it too late to embrace my inner wildchild? I watched easy A today and in the beginning she had so much fun acting like a slut without actually being one. Am I too, i dunno chicken; reserved; scared; lazy; pick your own adjective. Can i go through a wildchild phase now? Should I? Is it really possible for me to change who I am? but would it be more fun? Or not worth it?
God. Stupid considerations. i don't know why i bother thinking about this because i think we all know i'm never going to change. It's too difficult and i hate being out of my element. Sometimes I wish I was more like my sister...Sometimes I'm glad i'm not
This random quote from Kate Beckett on Castle prompted me thinking and thus todays post.
Now i would class myself as a good girl. I rarely drink, I'm not promiscuous, I'm generally well behaved. Okay so sometimes i can be a bitch but anyways the point is I would class myself as a good girl. i've been trying to think back and i don't think i've ever had a wildchild phase. I think i'm too self conscious to fully let go and go wild and that bothers me. I kinda wish I'd had a wildchild phase so i could've experience life more fully but alas, I didn't.
Is it too late to embrace my inner wildchild? I watched easy A today and in the beginning she had so much fun acting like a slut without actually being one. Am I too, i dunno chicken; reserved; scared; lazy; pick your own adjective. Can i go through a wildchild phase now? Should I? Is it really possible for me to change who I am? but would it be more fun? Or not worth it?
God. Stupid considerations. i don't know why i bother thinking about this because i think we all know i'm never going to change. It's too difficult and i hate being out of my element. Sometimes I wish I was more like my sister...Sometimes I'm glad i'm not
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Shag, Marry, or Kill: the TV edition
A lot of TV shows have teams, groups or partners that are basically the main characters. So since I'm procrastinating I'm gunna pick a few and play a little game with myself, I'm sure you all know the game SMK. basically you're given three names and you have to say which you'd shag, which you'd marry, and which you'd kill. I'll put an S, M, or K, in brackets next to whichever person I'd do the action to.
1. Psych. Shawn (S) and Gus (K)
2. White Collar. Neal (M), Peter (S), Moz (K)
3. Angel. Angel, Spike (S), Gunn (K), Doyle (M), Wesley
4. Hawaii Five-O. Steve (M), Danno (S), Chin (K)
5. Haven. Nathan (M), Duke (S)
6. CSI Miami. Eric Delko (K), Ryan Wolfe (S), Jesse Cardoza (M)
7. NCIS. Gibbs(K), Tony (M), McGee (S)
8. The Mentalist. Patrick Jayne (S), Wayne Rigsby (M), Kimball Cho (K)
9. Smallville. Clark (M), Oliver (S), Lex (K)
10. NCIS LA. Eric (M), Callen (K), Nate (S)
So you agree? or think I have issues and need therapy? Pick different people? Sound off in the comments below!
1. Psych. Shawn (S) and Gus (K)
2. White Collar. Neal (M), Peter (S), Moz (K)
3. Angel. Angel, Spike (S), Gunn (K), Doyle (M), Wesley
4. Hawaii Five-O. Steve (M), Danno (S), Chin (K)
5. Haven. Nathan (M), Duke (S)
6. CSI Miami. Eric Delko (K), Ryan Wolfe (S), Jesse Cardoza (M)
7. NCIS. Gibbs(K), Tony (M), McGee (S)
8. The Mentalist. Patrick Jayne (S), Wayne Rigsby (M), Kimball Cho (K)
9. Smallville. Clark (M), Oliver (S), Lex (K)
10. NCIS LA. Eric (M), Callen (K), Nate (S)
So you agree? or think I have issues and need therapy? Pick different people? Sound off in the comments below!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Movies I cant live without (3)
So in case you didn't notice I added something new to my blogs, a reaction bar, basically just click on it to say whether or not you think im full of shit or actually made some good points. Should help me figure out if i'm making sense :P Now to todays post...
The Day After Tomorrow (2004)
Starring Dennis Quaid, jake Gyllenhaal, and Emmy Rossum
Sudden weather changes disrupt the world as we know it as the Earth is plunged into a new Ice age. A climatologist tries desperately to reach his son in New York.
Why I like it:
1) Well despite a period where i strongly avoided this movie (please don't ask) I've always loved it. It's my go to movie when I'm studying, I've seen it so many times I practically know all the words. Why? Who knows. Its uplifting and great to see other freeze whilst you're warmly in bed (not that i'm a horrible person). I've seen it so many times i can lose focus and still no what's going on.
2) Jake Gyllenhaal's performance. Well not only is he awesome and totally hot but he was cute in a young almost looks the age he's supposed to be way. Plus the moment where his friend is stating how much of a nerd he is and jake is asleepish he half smiles is so cute. Positively dreamy :) Plus he gets shirtless :P And it's cute to see him all jealous and love-struck
3)The semi happy ending depsite the death of millions tugs at the heartstrings and is so uplifting despite the political role reversal aspects of the final scene. I wont give away too much here.
4) The special effects are brilliant. It actually looks like a wall of water rushing towards NYC and it actually looks like people are being swept up. Brilliant if i do say so myself.
5) Love triangle. Whilst it's easily resolved once disaster strikes I actually really like the way she has no idea about jake's characters' feelings for her. How she completely misses the jealousy but his other friend just thinks it hilarious that his competition is richer and more attractive than him. Its a really funny scene in the school's cafeteria.
So I really recommend this movie, I'm gunna give it 4.5 stars out of 5!
The Day After Tomorrow (2004)
Starring Dennis Quaid, jake Gyllenhaal, and Emmy Rossum
Sudden weather changes disrupt the world as we know it as the Earth is plunged into a new Ice age. A climatologist tries desperately to reach his son in New York.
Why I like it:
1) Well despite a period where i strongly avoided this movie (please don't ask) I've always loved it. It's my go to movie when I'm studying, I've seen it so many times I practically know all the words. Why? Who knows. Its uplifting and great to see other freeze whilst you're warmly in bed (not that i'm a horrible person). I've seen it so many times i can lose focus and still no what's going on.
2) Jake Gyllenhaal's performance. Well not only is he awesome and totally hot but he was cute in a young almost looks the age he's supposed to be way. Plus the moment where his friend is stating how much of a nerd he is and jake is asleepish he half smiles is so cute. Positively dreamy :) Plus he gets shirtless :P And it's cute to see him all jealous and love-struck
3)The semi happy ending depsite the death of millions tugs at the heartstrings and is so uplifting despite the political role reversal aspects of the final scene. I wont give away too much here.
4) The special effects are brilliant. It actually looks like a wall of water rushing towards NYC and it actually looks like people are being swept up. Brilliant if i do say so myself.
5) Love triangle. Whilst it's easily resolved once disaster strikes I actually really like the way she has no idea about jake's characters' feelings for her. How she completely misses the jealousy but his other friend just thinks it hilarious that his competition is richer and more attractive than him. Its a really funny scene in the school's cafeteria.
So I really recommend this movie, I'm gunna give it 4.5 stars out of 5!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Six Cartoon Characters I'd Totally Make Out With...
I saw this on a few other sites so I decided to do my version. So here it is:
1. Howl from Howl's moving Castle.
He just so beautiful and i love how easily he sinks into that pit of despair. "I see no point in living if I can't be beautiful". Besides he has a sexy voice. It's definitely the voice though, otherwise he'd be too girly looking, but the deep sexiness of Christian bale's voice heads straight to the naughty places in my mind.
2. Danny Phantom, from Danny Phantom
I used to have a major crush on this guy and i have no idea why. I like his badassness when he's in his alternate form with the weird silver hair, plus his green eyes are awesome. but he's totally adorable in his normal form, dark hair, blue eyes, totally weird but great friends. He was cute.
3. Prince Eric from the Little mermaid
Dreamy blue eyes, dark wavy hair, tanned skin and chiseled features. Not to mention the muscles of a man who works for a living despite the fact that, being a prince, he doesnt have to. Besides who doesn't love a man who adores his giant fluffy dog and besides, the man can dance!
5. Tarzan. Because, seriously, who wouldn't go there?! Mm chiseled features, floppy hair, ripped abs. The ability to swing from vines and talk to animals. I'd so go there!
1. Howl from Howl's moving Castle.
He just so beautiful and i love how easily he sinks into that pit of despair. "I see no point in living if I can't be beautiful". Besides he has a sexy voice. It's definitely the voice though, otherwise he'd be too girly looking, but the deep sexiness of Christian bale's voice heads straight to the naughty places in my mind.
2. Danny Phantom, from Danny Phantom
I used to have a major crush on this guy and i have no idea why. I like his badassness when he's in his alternate form with the weird silver hair, plus his green eyes are awesome. but he's totally adorable in his normal form, dark hair, blue eyes, totally weird but great friends. He was cute.
3. Prince Eric from the Little mermaid
Dreamy blue eyes, dark wavy hair, tanned skin and chiseled features. Not to mention the muscles of a man who works for a living despite the fact that, being a prince, he doesnt have to. Besides who doesn't love a man who adores his giant fluffy dog and besides, the man can dance!
4. Ron Stoppable from Kim Possible
There was something about his dorky fun loving nature and sheer sidekickness that made him so appealing. Even though was constantly seen as the sidekick he actually had some skills of his own, some weird monkey fists thing. He was funny and upbeat despite the fact he couldn't get other girls to give him the time of day. besides he was voiced by a guy who was one of my fav characters (Eric) in Boy Meets World and I've always liked his voice.
6. Since I couldn't really pick i have a few characters from Xmen Evolution
Gambit...the badass Cajun with a cool power and a sexy accent
Angel, because he's a hot dude with wings
Avalanche, because he's absolutely adorable when pining over Shadowcat yet still has the swagger of a guy who thinks he's the man. besides he's actually a pretty nice guy despite the fact he's a member of the brotherhood.
Cyclops, just coz he's the 'cool' guy of the gang and who honestly doesn't want to make out with the cool guy at least once in their lives.
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